9th june, where miracles are born, birth of fairyland, joy & laughter.. a girl who im not quite sure of its background enlightened the soul of my darkness where deep secrets tortures me everyday.. She appears to be swt & kind, face of an innocent was dramatically attached to this boy..
The boy wif no love experience was frantically thinking of ways to express his love to her.. slowly and slowly she calms him down in wadever he does and finally he get holds of the situation.. Slowly he get to noe her that she comes from a complicated background as she steals sweetly one by one of his first..
Slowly they both meet tgt once in every 2/3 days and spent the day out tgt.. He,having some savings, used it almost all when they're tgt outside.. He ltr discovered that her parents dont support her finanically and ill-treats her wif practically no meals.. So being a nice and ditful bf, he make sures he satisfy her hunger and daily needs with the money he has..
Being understanding wif such a family situation she has, he brings her to her fav.spot Balmora to play lan.. He den started to noticed that she easily get fustrated and stress because of audi.. shocking.. everytime she misses a key or a fm.. one whole string of vuglarities.. smacks on the keyboard... and even surprisly a middle finger pops out infront of the computer.. That was what he din realli expect from her.. Well for him, he doesnt wans to have a vulgarity gf.. and he believes she will changed for him, for love, his sake.. instead it become conflicts..
he said fine and he let it go.. accepting the vulgarities she throws.. when she gets upset in audi.. she started to vent anger on me and ltrs blames hes nt a caring bf..
comparing him & others so called '' wonderful'' bf's.. She fails to admit that she's at fault.. and it finally reach a part.. she picks wrong guy for clubdance.. she say sry and he say its ok.. =) when he accidently pick wrong.. she scoulds and say i hate u.. after i have apologized.. not even understanding.. He cant take it.. having a urge to break.. She nows den come in and apologize for everything.. The softhearted him, forgived her.
He stays out late wif her, tills he makes sures shes home.. reaching home at almost past midnight.. and always getting scoulding from parents.. and once he was pangseh by her in the middle of newton.. after agree-ing to ton.. he sends her off by taxi and found himself left wif $17.. waving her goodbye he deeply misses her and cant wait for nxt meet up.. He noes meeting up is gonna cost money and he doesnt wanna risk of spending of cab fair home.. so he decided to stay out frm 3am - 6am where first mrt arrives, having the thoughts of her.. he wonders in the middle of the night, alone, wif fear.. and soon he starts running a fever.. helding on till 4 plus.. he finally calls a cab and head home, too sick to hang on, running high fever home & kana gan like fk by parents.. and not even a morning sms or call comes in by her.. he soon realised how unimportant he was.. how insecured he started to feel.. she let him wif tears.. he step up to her and question her.. and all she could say was sry..
He startes to feel something is wierd.. all the time she was checking his sms-inbox,outbox.. well he has nth to hide.. so he lets her to see all she wans.. now he starts to feel that shes hiding and he appoarches to check.. she lifts eyebrown and asked.. why ah? dont trust me? reluntant to let him see.. He feels even more insecured by the passing moment.. Once he went all the way to newton to balmora lan to find her.. and after he reach.. shes told him im going off wif one hour.. he went wtf.. wan meet me go off within 1 hr.. feeling so fked up & even more insecured.. He startes to suspect sth.. where even more where she having other ppl sending her home instead of him..
One day.. she was in bunk.. telling me she cant meet him up for the day.. where she was meeting cykick, huiling, feedray, starieangle.. they both switch turns to play wif him as hes playing at home.. feeling so confused and fked up, jealous of her ex was beside her,cykick. after that she started emo and vent anger cos she gt sofa seat.. venting anger on him once again.. feeling fked up.. she left.. and suddenly he saw huiling on9 in audi.. he goes over and asked.. Huiling where are u.. she answered ''home''he went wtf and called her and confrence.. he ltr found out feedray cykick starieangle were nt even in bunk, nt even wif her.. She lied.. minutes ltr.. Elaco called me and told me she say her holding a guy hand outside bunk.. immediately he went wtf again.. he called her and pranked her to play audi ltr.. expecting her to go parklane ltr.. wher the balmora lan has moved there.. he rushes down wif a cab down to parklane.. and finally witness her wif another guy.. wif his own very eyes.. He steps up.. and walk to her.. ask she turns behind he saws him, a guy who has been taking in mistreats by her wif addition of lies while he treats her like a princess..
he turns and walk away.. noeing its the end of us.. she ran over and pull his hand.. he said.. ''wo ba ni dang bao, ni ba wo dang chao!'' shoving her hands away.. unable to believe his first bgr was so screwed having his feelings shared over 3 guys at the same time.. being 3-timed for fking 3 weeks, all the feelings were fake.. tears started to roll down her cheeks.. saying her life is jinx.. her life is cursed.. wif this kinda of parents.. treat her like trash.. This foolish guy.. has unknowly falls into her clutches cos he had fell too deep for her as she steals everyfirst one by one when they meet up.. she says that her ex onced 2-timer her and she wanted to take revenge on guys now, having flings, 2-3timer other guys.. He decided to gave her a 2nd chance.. Himself alone, believes in 2nd chances.. Everyone has a reason to see light.. for her too.. trying to be the special one to change tides for her.. guide the road for her to heaven..
7promises were made, faith, trust, loyalty, no hiding, no lies, thrifty-ness and love. She was forgiven.
The nxt day they both went out.. and everything seem to be fine.. tills end of the day.. she called her ex to send her home instead of me.. where she told him.. her so called ''frend'' Feeling fked up & jealous, he headed home, 45mins bus ride as usual.. reaching home and found his gf at audi.. he question.. u at where? can play audi at ur bro hse meh? i tot u said u cant even use the com there.. She started to get angry after i started to question her.. and soon conflict started.. she say take clothers frm his hse.. cannot ah..? fine.. and 15mins ltr.. she was still in audi.. and asked.. take clothers need 15mins wan meh.. she say wads ur problem? our hse are juz opp. he said.. ok fine.. u go ur bro hse use hse fone call me.. and i'll believe u.. she burst into anger and say.. fine la u dont believe den we break la.. and left the room.. he spam her fone and cykick(her-ex) hse fone.. they both dont pick up my calls.. she said.. i will be going home soon.. dont believe me break up.. he called huiling and ask from her a favour to call cykick and in the end he found out she was staying overnight at cykick hse(her-ex) how pissed he was.. after hearing that.. lieing & lieing to her bf.. he have been sick for near 3weeks.. and its all because of her.. taking his strength everyday.. and coughed blooded.. After confrencing wif his close peeps.. he had decided its the end of relationship.. which struck her that she quickly came down and check on me in the morning.. come check from wad..? he says.. all u wan is audi.. go back audi la.. she keep says shes sry and would nv mistreat and lie to him every again.. still loving her.. he gave him one more of extra chance..
Things appear to be fine for awhile.. soon, he started to notice she keeps uses his fone to call other people.. even in the presence of him, he feels so pissed, not even concern how much it cost, his feelings, and soon, hes started runnin on low funds, and unknowly for her she keeps spent on stuff thats aint worth it.. He doesnt work, onli supporting himself and hers, both expenses by its daily allowance of $10.. He hopes that her gf could understanding hes doing the best to make sure shes dont live in hunger.. day by day.. he feels the burden came bigger & bigger crushing.. worrying of everyday overspending.. He has to skip meals and eat the one of the cheapest food u can find in his sch.. and for her sake.. when meeting up.. she ask to buy this and that.. spending his money like her money.. and after that.. she pushes her stuff towards him, having him carrying everything and she carrys nthing.. enjoying every moment.. once she pleads for a yogurt lefting him wif not even 10cent.. ltr she grabs a magaizine and lies on the side of the wall and read.. where he holds everything standing beside her doing nth.. sch bag,lappytop,her bag,drinks, everything wif him and nth on her.. he says.. i think im more den ur maid den ur boyfriend.. she says sry.. and promises i hold the stuff nxt time..
days past.. trying hard to save of the upcoming birthday celebration & 2nd month anniversary.. it was juz like any other day.. wif worryness of her gf will she be cheating on him again, and will he overspent again.. its hard for him to everytime to gain back the trust where he gives her when everytimes she has been caught red-handed from lieing.. it was sleepless night for weeks.. this poor him. this happening day.. she told me she was sick and was unable to meet me.. he went like oh.. i'll come to ur doorstep and bring panadols ltr.. she say no need.. mommy bring her to see doc.. she called and says im in clinic now,mom brought her.. ltr dun come im going to slp.. he calls after his dismissed from sch.. shes fails to pick up.. he calls her hse.. happening her mom pick up.. i asked.. is she at home.. she says no.. he was utterly shocked.. i asked.. did u brought he to see a doc.. she say no ah.. she slp till 3pm happily and went out.. after hearing that he gt pissed & fked up.. that he has been lied over AGAIN! he took the shot.. took a 1hr ride all the way to douby ghaut parklane lan shop.. and finally he reach and guess wad.. he say her playing audition in front of her v.eyes again.. smiling at the com.. he gave her the wtf & its over face.. and he left.. she rushes out of the lan and chases him.. and held him.. but this time.. he turn his head back wif raging eyes and shoved her hands off wif no mercy.. too many times u have lied to me.. its over.. she held and he shoved till the entrance and esclator.. he finally break free and headed home.. wif pissed, anger, disappointment..
endless calls started coming into his fone.. he too @#$%^& to pick up any.. she begs and she begs for one last chance.. saying that she will quit audi for the guy she loves.. a promise to him.. she say would do anything for him.. one last chance.. prove that shes the one for him.. after a period of confrencing.. still loving her.. the one last chance was given.. as she gave him heart shape cake, folded stars and doggy pushie as present and followed by flowers the nxt day for appreciation of him fogiving her.. she promised getting to job at holidays tgt to share our burdens..
looking at sincerity.. she's forgiven.. once again.. so hanging is days tgt wif $10 allowance and extremely hard to save.. he tries to make sure she understands the situation shes handling wif..
few days back he managed to finally save some money.. where finally he could wad the movie they both promised to watch tgt.. having past bad experience.. he noes she sleeps most of the movies in cinema.. so he asked u btr dont slept in this one.. she denys and say she doesnt want to watch.. fails to content wad he have been expecting to watch.. fine den.. he brings her to have dinner.. they both have same equal of dinner.. thinking that they didnt have dessert for a long time.. he suggested lets get dessert.. and minutes ltr.. one of the cheapest dessert was on my side of table and one of the most expensive dessert was on her side of table.. he went silent for the moment.. nt even aware wad situation is he facing now.. handling 2 person expenses for near 7 weeks.. fine.. he let it go since she complains she didnt have dessert for a v.long time.. after 20mins.. she asked.. can i have slurpee? he went wth? we juz ate and u want sth again.. she plead i nv drank slurpee for more den 2 yrs.. please? he agrees, u noe he had no chioce.. but onli after sometime ltr.. they walk pass a icecream stall and she asked.. we have icecream ba.. den soon, she ordered.. after that he suggested lets go 5th floor to see lan.. long time nv visit and see ler.. reach there and she saw her frend.. she went in and talk for 10mins.. having the bf holding her bag standing outside.. waiting.. she ltr came out.. and pass him her icecream and went in again and talked another 10mins.. obviously.. he feels so extremely pissed.. den she came out and all she say was sry la.. she drags him into the lan.. and agree of lets ard in land.. she stands inside the lan like 20 seconds and say.. lets go.. where her boyfrend haven even see a single thing yet.. $%^&* tats wads he feeling.. and all she could say.. is sry..
fewdays back.. she agrees to meet him to watch wcg tgt.. but in the presense she goes there to support her ex-bf(lordkanenites) he was like wtf.. every u mistreat me till now.. u still even dont care ur bf feelings and want to support ur ex.. fine he says.. ignoring the pain she have dealt to him.. woke up and planning to make breakfast for her to cut cost.. found her in her gan-bro hse having breakfast.. so the swt idea was dropped.. told her to meet at 11.30am.. went down 45mins bus ride.. and she was late wif her gan bro for more den 1hr.. on the fone he says.. can u pls have more time management in the future? she started say.. wah lao.. stop scoulding me.. after that she says.. im leaving at 4pm.. go high tea ltr.. he went wtf.. i came so far for this little? put u as first piority for all times yet u say u pangsehing me ltr at wcg(suntec).. he gt extremely pissed and went sch.. since there was sch ltr.. not even a call or sms she gave after i left infront of her v.eyes.. he noes hes nt impt anymore.. den she finally calls & sms till he finallys picks up.. shes says again.. sry.. and he again.. soft-hearted.. forgive her again..
she appeared to be sick the nxt day.. wif asthmetic and it was impossible for her to walk out.. so they both din meet.. the nxt day.. she say she wan see him.. as he going to wcg ltr.. says take cab to suntec and i'll pay for u.. she comes and they watch.. he is a more to a cs guy.. and he wans to watch at the cs booth.. and she say pei her.. fine he pei her.. and after that fifa finals.. she say sian.. so she ask me pei her.. he said.. i pei u all the time.. why cant u pei me.. she say im girl leh.. he went wth.. where gt guys pei girls girls dont pei guys.. she ltr say argh im sry.. he fogives cos he didnt want to add pain to her since she sick and even surpise her to bring her to lan.. played and enjoy.. end of the day.. he said.. 2 weeks to exam.. u have to study now.. if u dont.. u gonna fail.. den she say.. u keep tieing me down.. how can i fking concentrate on studying for my exams, i cant even play audition cos of u, he went wtf, exam period u wan study, when u have the time to play, u vent anger and the pain i get, now i bring u play once in a while to enjoy, i still get complains by u, all u wan is audi, when will start be independence and work to lift the burdens of ur bf? she answered, 21. He went dumbfounded, are u going to have ur boyfriend to support u for the rest of 4yrs wif $10 per day? She say, i still have my gan-bro wad, he went wtf.. she complains even more that hes intruding her privacy, nt allowing to play and reading her inbox, he went, hello? if im intruding? why would i bring u to lan in the first place, 2ndly u have lied to me so much for the past 7 weeks and i had nv lied to u, not even 1! obviously i need time to trust u back, dont u even let ur boyfriend have time? she said straight, NO! He went triple WTF! He put down the fone and confrence everything he undergoes wif his mum, and his mum, straight tell him to break.. no point having this girl.. i wont allow..
the nxt morning he called and asked, did u think abt the words u said? still sure that ur right? wanting to give her a chance cos he found its pityful to let go after something he has much loved so long.. she say, nth, i still thinking u dun let me play audi is wrong, its my life, what can u do? After hearing these.. he knew its over.. after he had delicated so much in her life.. He hear this kind of stuff.. and said.. lets meet up.. and talk if not we will blow up over the fone again.. her gan-bro called in.. and he asked.. i din go sch 2day.. lets meet up and talk tgt.. immediately he was put onhold.. she & her gan-bro talked.. and unhold him back.. she said.. he nt free 2day.. infact he hates u.. dun wan meet u.. He went.. he has his mouth.. if he hates me.. why not let him say for himself.. comeon? dont have the need to stuff words in his.. so he said.. fine.. den talk on the fone den.. and imeediately.. he was put onhold again.. and den unhold.. and she said.. he dont even wann talk to u.. he went WTF again.. he asked.. gabrielle.. all i need is juz some time.. talk.. can? immediately she cut in and say.. Kor... Korrrrrr!!! gan bro said.. ok 5mins.. and she cut in.. WAD!!! He went WTH!!! even 5mins to talk wif ur gan-bro also cant? She say i niao.. He went wtf.. i supported u so hard spending so much u say i niao? and thing blow off.. and he cant take it.. FINEEEE!!! U WAN TO AUDI, U WAN TO PLAY, U WAN TO ENJOY, U WAN TO SLACK, U WAN PPL SPON-FEED U FOOD, U WAN MONEY, U DUN WAN STUDY, U DUN WAN WORK.. OK FINE! I CANT LIVE WIF THIS KIND OF GF,LETS FKING BREAK UP! off he goes cut off the fone *
he den contacts elaco,mama,valerie and all 3 agree break up is the best chioce
4hrs ltr she sms, ''dear my bag lost, how?''
he went, we break up ler why do u still dear me? thinkin *
at night, she called him, at mama hse, and say if she can have another chance, say she promised him, i will tahan 2 weeks and study well, and enjoy the rest of the 2mths hols tgt, he having ups & downs, didnt say anything, and den he said, dono, anything else? she said nth, and the fone was put done, he started thinking abt wad she said abt her promised, mins ltr, a sms came in, mama told him that she was playing auditon in her room right now, and thats tells it! hes cfm to break up and wif no patch! cant even imagine having this kind of situation, still can play audi..
minutes ltr, she sms say she went off alr, juz play awhile, he went ah? 1hr ltr mama called, and said, JUZ NOW SHE WAS STILL PLAYING AUDI! HAD ASKED ME TO FAKE UP A LIE TO TELL THAT SHE WENT HOME! he went double WTF/WTH, now still wan lie, lols its the end, karen was witnessing everything, and agrees to be his witness,
day where it comes to the final meetup, he asked, tat day did u went home after u put down the fone? she said, ya! surprisely, she still lies! and he take out his hp and show her the sms mama sms, she went silent, u did play after u put down the fone din u, she cany deny no more and she said ya! He left wif one concluding sentence, u had nv treasured me in ur life, rite, lies after lies, come on, dont u deny? she say ya, i din treasure u, he says, tats say it den, from now, w/e probs, u die u starve u sick dun ever contact me, cos im nt going to help u anymore, she said, cant we juz be frends? He say why? u dont even treasure me in ur life when i treated u so well, why do i have a reason to treasure u as my friend, she had nth to say and juz said, fine i respect that, He said, thanks for the memories.. and there, he walks off, end of a disaterous 7 weeks & 5 days of relationship
Thx to those people who have came and read the story i've wrote.. Thx for being patient wif me, i needed listening ears and people to lift me up on my feet =/
Special thx to those who helped me in the state of probs in my bgr
1)Elaco
2)Huiling
3)DD_xiaomama
4)HorniieGurl
5)Valerie
without u guys, i proberly still stirlling in the deep hole i've fell into..
to her:
all i wan is my life back, so pls if ur reading this, i will appreacite if u juz leave me alone, and i alr left urs.. good luck in ur endoveours..
to those who's in the circle of her friends:
its ok if u choose to believe her, but im sure all this 7weeks and 5days, i have been the extremely good bf to her, well if u dont u can refer to my frends if u believe, even the aunts & my class mate sees everything.. well i aint want anything from her.. and i would realli appreciate if u juz MYOB, thx in advance =)
everything i've undergo shall be kept as past,
all i wan now is my normal life back,
both, free now =)
sincery bottom of my heart, 7weeks & 5days,4109words.
waqwaqsaucey*
juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
thx for the memories.. even they were'nt so great..=)