major blow out!.. argh.. ok im letting the stuffs i felt..
over the days.. shld say over the times..
i feel im being misused. misplaced.
ok everything is in aud okies..
haiis..

its like.. everything i do for the person..
he/she has xing shi.. they come to me..
and yea i console.. give them my listening ear..
and then solve their problems.. guidance..
they happy and im happy too..

and after they are ok.. they juz seem to 4gotton me..
like in their eyes.. am i juz ur shoulder to lean on?
i feel so darned used. argh.. why cant u guys just learn..
to apprecaite things are given to u.. tmd!
so darn taking me for granted..

everytime i login.. i found my self left out from my buddies..
they usualliy will be in their own clinque..
this feeling is like no other..
when i take the inactive to bump onto them..
wad juz 3 lines? HELLOS SUACEY ;D <333 ?
and simi sai ? after that im stoning like glass in ur room?
dont u have sth tat we can start off and talk?
its like so dam one sided frends..
tmd!

when i faces problems.. buddies wun step up and ask.
heys wads wrong? =S , hey i've make it darn obvious..
pulling a long face.. for full day..
and till 4-5hrs.. no pms.. im juz glass to u guys?
and the pms ltr are like.. hey u ok? uhhuh.. ?
ooo... orh... zzz.. are u guys mentally dumb enuff to console?
i believe when u guys were down.. my consolelations for u guys
were more den expected.. like why could i get a least the minium
consoles to ease my pain?

and it hurts more after my cosolation i gt .. u fall back into the same mistakes again..i have to mention this. realli.. i spent my time saying that..
juz to clear ur mind and make sure u have the clear vision of wads going on..
nv fall back again.. and now.. nxt time u gt the same problem u better dun find me..
if not i confirm will make ur tears taste like shyt! i had enuff.

i have no one to run too.. even though. proberly they were nel & york3..
but once again.. they are couples.. and it feels sucky when they shld have noe..
im alreadi nt ok.. and yea.. qing re infront of me.. when im zz alreadi..
makes me even more zz , like over the edge..
well i dun wan to make this sounds awful..
but the marriage u 2 guys had earlier.. i was happy for u 2..
well i dislike dawnnie from that pt she said i was the someone keep blame for cang missing keys..
like wtf? i play wif u guys so long.. and it was so darn obvious..
it was meant to be a gesture.. and its like the first gesture i made wif u 2..
they juz rip it off? i even had ecomotions to make it obvious..
so tat dumbers can even see its juz a tease..tmd !
and then dawnnie came in for the obs in nel & york3 weddin..
and obviously im darn zz alreadi.. well i spam zz earlier.. to hint pls dun call her..guess wad u called.. and theirs the spoiler..
i left the room. and i pm both nel & york3.. grats in advance..
all i get is juz thanks? fk it man.. wouldnt u 2 go like..
aww dun liddat le? pls come back? gimme some face?
i clearly recalled york3 mentioned that i was her closest in aud..
nel , juan , dearie & me.. and yet becuz of dawnnie u juz let me on my own..
in ur big occasion.. wtf man. i feel so fking left out once again..
and the words u said.. i gonna have doubts.. from this point..

i juz wan a close clique.. true friends.. maybe her?
and juz some fun..

is that too much? =(

i had enuff.. im mia-ing saucey & del-ing buddies one by one..
onli a small amt will be kept..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
goodbye. saucey'