woke up feeling fk up..
aud patch.. kns..
raining.. cannot go play bbal..
watch nba LA vs SUS.. nice game..
aud was up @ 12+..
decided to watch finised den aud..
thx elaco for pming.. thx for consoling , like finally some nudge..
the chris , j-hanx for consoling too..
the rest still zz.. fine 4get it..
u dun treasure me ur lost.. one day u sure find my name disapper from ur bl..
sorted some things out 2day..
like i put in my psn msg earlier..
im gonna say it all be4 i go.. juz so you noe..
from the day i met you..
i know u dun come from any ordinary family..
didnt have any other ordiary childhood memories..
i knew that ur one special person..
perhaps im juz understand u too well..
sometimes i can figure wads in ur mind..
no 1 is meant to be perfect.. im met ur flaws..
i did my part to correct u.. for the better..
but sure u will met mine someday..
or may be it has alreadi happen.. idk..
a emo-person i see.. same as me..
i knew this person needed help & attention..
when ever i sees sth wrong..
i wouldnt hesitate to step up and say..
''hey u dun seem ok , wads wrong? =S ''
yea i believe i did my part..
reaching out for u.. promises were made..
ensuring u wun do sth foolish enuff to harm urself..
thx for everything u did for me.. song & skins..
realli appreciated * well this is juz onesided help i've gotten..
one other side.. is when i nt ok.. i nv recalled u ever step up to me..
i think its pretty obvious.. many times i tried to hint you..
but yea.. 2 days.. no reaction.. nt saying u dun care..
im juz SOOO not the type of person..
that im gonna tell u im nt fine.. den u will come..
totally not.. another thing was throwing thamtrum..
no 1 blames u for anything.. every person makes mistakes..
every single thing that happens.. are actualli experience to u..
i hate it when u go like.. w/e la , everything also my fault..
i the bad guy la.. happy now?
put that words in my shoe.. and if u were hearing it..
how would u feel.. i hope ur reading this..
cos everything i said comes from btm of my heart..
i feel i shld juz step up once again.. let u noe wads all abt..
im nt perfect.. so if u have things u wanna tell me abt..
juz tell me.. i would be happy to know my flaws..
but if u think all my talkings are trash , aint real..
i cant save u.. but one thing *
im still gonna be everything u need in anyway..
unless u dun need it anymore..
just have to say it all ,
before i go ,
just so u noe..
juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; eevrything is so clear now.. i will be ok by 2ml =)