sch sux , i realli think im a blur sotong..
ytd cannot login to npal.. go sch wif no idea where my class room would be..
was late .. went to block 50 , looking for familiar faces..
say my yr 2 frend.. he directed me to atrium.. i called my frend , same course as me..
he refused to pick my fone.. 4 times straight.. den nvm ..
reach atrium.. the counter lady ask me go block 37 floor 6..
ok walk all the way up agins.. she ask for my student id , & moments ltr..
she gave me my time table.. great.. den finally walk to blk 50..
my class.. be4 i reach.. he sms.. i in class liao.. wtf sia.. dam tu lan..
pick fone will die ah.. den nvm.. reach my class.. feeling pai sei , irratated.. sweat like fark ~_~
the new adidas flip flop was venting its anger on my feet.. the rubber area..
keep rubbing onto my skin.. causing pain , 1st layer of skin came off.. painfullness..
used up 1 box of handplast.. they were nv handy ~_~ went home wif gay looking feet =S

its a long journey , ever since we knew each other..
when we realli hit it off staring to noe more bout each other..
i found ur the exact person tat was showing signs of falling into my shoe..
an unseemly emotion let my heart out to step into ur life ,
a mission to save u before you could have fallen..
i took the iniciative to guide you , show you , tell you , step up ,
point to you , be there for you , i even loved u from the beginning..
and all this times.. i truely believed , i gave in what i got..
devoted my precious time.. , endure wad attiude u gave me..
i did my part , as wadever status i am to u in ur heart..
sad to said.. tats wad i can give.. i tried my best.. sorry..

these times.. i juz dun seem to get.. why cant u learn to adapt to my solutions?
time after time.. i've guide u all along.. even time theres a mistake..
i point.. show u the way.. even make obviously hints wad u shld do..
u asked y i have to change u when im what of who i am? i told u..
cos ur something special.. tat i see a sign of failure.. where me as a frend..
could step up and save you.. , u shocked me more.. u gt ask me to change other
things meh? after i did so much stuffs.. u din feel anything ? u dun feel i changing u?
concerned u so much? guide u ? show u? im truely disappointed..
u say ur nt bright.. and i told u no1 is borned perfect.. u can learn rite..
from expierences.. no 1 is broned dumb & 4ever dumb..

another thing i juz couldnt understand.. why u cant juz think abt me in the first place..
why has it to be u to think about urself saying that im actualli suffering the most?
pls.. u dun even see that those problems hit me first.. i fall ALONE..
stood up ALONE , wif bruised & cuts.. and den i tell u abt the problems..
and i told u.. im here for u .. despite the brusied & cuts.. and u had to brag abt it..
ur suffering the most.. can u see..? if u didnt make those mistakes unknowly..
problems would have nv hit me..

den when i tell u about the problems.. u always feel so relunctant..
u juz say.. orh .. orh.. orh.. , saying for hrs.. and i tot u have gotten it..
and the nxt day.. everything falls back in place.. nth have changed..!
i wonder ur orh's are juz to satisfied me? each time situations like this..
i spend time.. repeating over & over again.. time after time..
i nv mention a word abt it.. u nv took my words seriously..
tats all i can say..

ytd u nugde me.. and u said u were sorry.. and i told u..
sorry is nth when u proof ur realli sorry.. though u said makes me feel happy..
but moments ltr.. problems start hitting again..
like every time i say.. u nv take the initiative to make the first step..
at all.. no add ons.. no swt talkings.. no step ups.. no nth..
if i dun care abt u.. i wun have waited ur 5-10mins of each reply..
tat drag for 4hrs till midnight.. i was holding on my fever to hear u talk..
wad shyt.. have u even thought abt it? guess u wouldnt had..

and promise u go sch 2day.. i hinted u ytd i have hp..
and no sms.. ok.. so when i gt home.. i saw ur psn msg..
'' suan le ''? pissed.. after doing so much u juz suan ler?
i wanted to nudge u and ask.. u psn msg suan ler..
nvm.. den u psn msg.. '' its over ''? i nudge u and say..
if u thinks its over.. it will be.. den u reply me wif ap..
'' nv talk , end liao ma.. '' wtf sia.. after doing so much for u..
u think juz buy sorry baby.. and tats gonna erase all my pain 1 night?
have u heard of bu chang? slowly get me back?
the simplest thing u also dun get it.. i explained once all over again..
u see so relunctant and wans to get straight.. ask me so this time no chance?
are u tat forward looking to see wads the ending?
i gave u chances all along.. many many.. expecting u to change..
tell me , do u deserve a 2nd chance..? u quickly came to
conclusion , no chance? ok nvm. wtf la?
many times.. i held myself back.. ok 1 more chance.. 1 more..
and another 1 more.. and this time u went even fiercer den me..
i explained.. why and etc.. i even blinded myself..
force myself.. hint u once last chance.. proof me tat ur serious..
this time.. but wad u gave? i rather dun wait it.. end it..

my heart shattered.. after doing so much for u.. u felt nth..
and u juz gonna take back everything and end it?
u nv once treasured me.. and i felt what a fool am i to let u
deserve my love.. im so ruined..=S ,#@$%^&* =SS

tell you i loved you , but when u call I NEVER GET BACK.

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; i wanted these words to make things rite , but its the wrong things that make this words come to life.. so isit pain that makes you real?