blows after blows.. i cant take it anymore lars..
o lvl result out.. i gt posted to course i dun wan again.. another upsets AGAINS!
is this fated? or is this retribution? im a free thinker for a long time..
o lvl was expecting 15~ 18 came out 21.. the courses will nt much but i gt through that..
some how mobile buisness solutions conviced me.. 21 points sames as my COP..
was extremely looking 4ward getting it.. i have 2 ex-hkss students in it too..
i had it my first chioces.. and barely cared about the rest 11 chioces..

and guess wad.. i gt into MECHANICAL ENGINEERING..
wtf? this totally spoils my mood.. i was dam fustrated.. and somehow feeling helpless..
msn was flooding me wif where i go.. it was so irratating to say sth i nv intrested to get in to..
over & over again.. i bother my frend to woke up.. pei me go NP appeal.. thx wee hong =))

reach there by 10+ , the place wasnt packed.. i check de scoreboard.. MOBILE BUSINESS SOLUTIONS
has gone up by 1 POINT! COP 20.. and becuz of tat one fking point.. im unable to appeal for it..
i stood there dumbfounded.. asking different counsellers.. will i have have the chance..
and as usual.. ''SO SORRY , IT OVER''

my heart literally sank.. i stood there.. looking.. trying to paint the extreme picture.. of everthing..
dozen of things flow in & it of my brain.. am i suey or wad.. isnt appeal for a better course.. close to the COP?
well they say '' NV REACH COP.. NO TALK ''
i have no idea..whats the point of having this word ''appeal'' is in the dictionary..

the courses there.. onli 5 in NP is eligible for me.. & the courses are bullshit.. NP even worst..
RP was nv in mind.. NYP wad dam far.. tell me about it about TP..
this is de worst case senario in my life.. im so freaking helpess.. im so sry wee hong have to see me like this..
sry bro.. bare wif me..=/

went home.. everything seems so dead.. i linger ard my room & living room.. lieing ard & thinking..
so zz.. so zz.. my mom tried to encourage me.. but.. i cannot take it lars..mommy made de effort of running to my neighbour.. surprised* cos my neighbour was ex-hkss teacher.. so i meet her after dinner *
and she discuss wif me de routes.. after chatting i figure some stuffs out..

-i have 3 choices to post my appeal courses..
-mobile business solution is out.. cos those wif better COP will obviously take my spot..
-mechtronics egineering wil be my one last shot.. cos it have stuffs tat intrest me..
-muz rmb to register.. through tat 15 march post
-release of appeal is 13 march..
-i can choose to retake subjects.. for better.. take this yr as a experience..opt for better course nxt yr..
-or i can juz take de route.. all the way through.. make a living out of it.. work hard..

today mood is totally ruined.. this is hypocrtical bullshit..
im gonna take de risk.. believe god.. once again.. let me into mechatronics enginerring..pls..

i juz wanna go to the beach.. scream my lungs out.. cry it out.. let it go..

juz may'b someday.. i would be good enuff for you..
; where were you when i need you the most..?